Words,Hopes,Faith & Belief

Unknown anxiety, uncertain future, useless wealth, unhealthy lifestyle, unhelpful people - all these are not something that we are born with. We human beings are born with limitless imagination, love, laughter, probabilities and divine blessings.

All those negative emotions are fed to us by the elderly people whom we trust most as a toddler or a young soul.

When we should learn the word can be a beautiful place, the life you have is a gifted one, the talents or the thoughts you have maybe need to get a little bit modified but those can be bright..

One incident I would like to share from my own life.. Actually Two…

First one… It was the last night of the year… the great 31st December… a night of winter when everyone is busy preparing for celebrating the new year with their loved ones… The roads are packed with rides and riders, passengers on the way to go home or to the party place where they plan to meet. Restaurants are smelling beautifully with the Kebabs they are making... But we never want such a new year ever to come in our life…. Two of my family members were admitted to the hospital and others were with them..Home became a place where crying could be heard at the end of the night... for almost a month or two.. We have experienced what helplessness could be felt at the most…

But the fairy child of our home..whom sadness could not grip over… who was matured but a ray of sunshine at the same time was in her magical whim… When we were thinking that an inevitable future might come up… then she was relaxed.. She brought me up from the bed and made me join her to see the flashlights and the fireworks and the lanterns lit by people at the Zero Hour… A New Year … She was beaming, calm and hopeful… She was made to learn that Allah can fix everything.. And She asked Allah to make everything right… She did not think about what can go wrong..she just prayed.. With that small hands but with the big heart of hers to the Almighty who shys to make His slaves go away empty ended… And eventually, all the prayers came true..those bad times passed away..whenever we think of that time.. Our eyes only well up with tears of gratitude..but an unknown anxiety also creeps up…

Now Incident No 2…

Some elderly close (namely) people made my life miserable at the beginning of my new life by making it a slogan every day and night, from dining to drawing that without a bank job/ government job our old days would be horrible, miserable… As a girl of 28 years old who has even seen many dark times before, I was in a horrible condition mentally. I had a heart full of hopes when I thought now everything would be beautiful and colorful.. They made everything black and blue… I have come out from that space..but those words, those warnings made anxiety inside my head.. The anxiety creeps up whenever my savings go down from my intended amount… A feeling of hatred is born inside my heart which only burns me up… I always feel negative, scared about the winter days and to be precise I am a religious person who tries to maintain.....

I can not but feel anger, burn, anxiety, fear, and those warnings, shouts never went away from my brain… I can not function fully now... And lots of the mornings are awful for me… when I wake up with a grumpy mind and face...

Words… hopes…. Negativities… positivities…. And no one pays… and everyone pays…